Something that all of us suffer from. We, being only human, are forever being paranoid of things, issues, people, everything. There are definitely some people who are more paranoid than the others. Take my section mate REC TAN JUN WEN for example. He is always afraid that we will be late for falling in at the Yankee Coyline before 5BX every morning if we don’t wake up before 0515, and he is always afraid that REC CASPER LEE ZIHAO will screw things up, even though the truth is REC CASPER LEE ZIHAO does not screw things up as often as he thinks. The point is, we are, in a way or other, being paranoid all the time.

Being paranoid that people talk behind our backs.
Being paranoid that people will screw things up for us.
Being paranoid that people hate us for doing what’s right.
Being paranoid that people remember us for doing what’s wrong, and hate us.
Being paranoid that people find us too wayang.
Being paranoid that people find us annoying.
Being paranoid that we are not loved by others.
Being paranoid that we are wasting two years of our time.
Being paranoid about the system.
Being paranoid about everything.

But when everyone is paranoid about everything, there is no trust. Nothing gets done, nothing will be done. Everyone gets screwed when nothing is done. So, why not just trust, stop being paranoid about everything, get everything done, then no one will get screwed in the process?

Something I always wonder in that training ground of ours.

Anyway, even though I’m not entering OCS any time soon, or ever, I’m going to face a three-week “confinement”. No, not confinement, it’s “confinement”. I’ll miss you.